Do You Ever???

 Do you ever think back on times that used to be and seem to forget that the past had hard times, and sad times.

 Times when loved one's passed away but you could still find happiness in the fact that you knew you would seem them again.

 Times when your best friend knew nothing about you, but you knew without a doubt that they were going to be your world, and mean everything to you.

 Times when you longed to be a lady, and coincidently, you were. No matter who disagreed with you.

 Times when you struggled so much, but all the struggles seemed to be glittered with love and chance. Chance that is so beautiful it fits upon your face Rosey lenses.

 Times when all you cared about was being with the people you loved.

 Times when you forgot about the things you hate, and remembered that you love everything.

 Times when you loved the person you were because people loved that person. They were true to her, and she was true to them.

 Times when all your thoughts centered around was your next adventure, and who would accompany you on the journey.

 Do you ever consider the thought that in the past you were funnier, happier, and more loving.

 Do you think about the people you loved, the places you went, and the truths and lies you believed in. Then wonder, how on earth did that get me here?

 Times when you decided that it didn't matter at all what other people thought because you were going to be you no matter what. NO MATTER WHAT.

 Do you consider the fact that you believed with all of your heart that your soul was beautiful? Now do you? Do you remember those times? Because they were there.

 But, also along with these things there were serious things that consumed your being and made you fall apart. Because you were heart-broken, not from boys, or people, but from yourself.

 There were bad times too, just remember that. Not everything was in high defenition. Not everything was colorful and bright and happy. There was a sadness that could not be measured during those times.

 The difference is, the reason why you feel these things and want to go back to them is... because you overcame them. You could do it all over again and come out conquerer. Because you know NOW that you could beat it all down, without the stick.

 Do you ever think about how you danced, and moved, and loved every moment of your life because you had wonderful people in it, that you felt like you couldn't be without.

 Do you ever look back and remember those times when you couldn't contain your happiness and a smile spilled over your face all the time. Without end, without cause, except that you were alive and in love with being alive.

 Oh I remember those times, I do. Sometimes they come back to me and I feel them resurface again. Oh, it's not to say that I'm not happy, I am.

It's just to say that. Well, life is difficult and often times I find myself wishing for the past so that life would be easy again. Do you ever think like that?